Friday, March 30, 2012

waffles

This morning broke out the new waffle maker and of course, bacon. Working back into cooking for myself. Since most of my adult life has been shared with some really good cooks, I haven't too much experience. Maybe because I'm not much of a foodie and cooking for one's self means eating the leftovers for days. Still, besides the mess, it's kind of fun.

Went out to here a local band last night. Close enough to walk, so Russell the Corgi got to come along. He was a big hit, maybe more than the band, lol. We clocked over three miles yesterday. Just beginning to feel normal. Having a beer there made me feel more like a normal person.

I'm back to recording my guitar practice. Sometime fair, sometimes worse. I'm blaming it all on the tree pollen (which set records last week). But I put a lot of work into getting the signal chain ready for recording. I guess these would be scratch tracks. Next will be adding tracks for the bass and the mandolin. I'm using the music recording software, Audacity. Not bad.

Tonight Tea Leaf Green (San Francisco jam/folk/rock band) at the Neighborhood Theater. May even take the camera. Off to practice now, then take the puppies out. After that, taking Russell for a walk and the camera to shoot the trees and lowering plants.

Fun day planned.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

cloudy day

Not feeling all that energetic today. Need to pay a bill from 2010.  Great accounting you guys.

I've been reading some terrible articles, well the articles themselves are good, but the topics are horrifying.

First was in the Rolling Stone (a surprisingly good news magazine) on the new NSA facility. As you may know, since the beginning of this century, the Federal Government has been routing all internet traffic through their servers in order to scan the traffic. That traffic is our emails, web searches and web traffic. This new facility will be able to store all that internet traffic, email and phone calls from anywhere in the U.S. Even if you encrypt your email, they will store it until the encryption can be broken. 

Add that to facial recognition software and security cameras now so common, as well as gps phone tracking, we are so ripe for a Totalitarian takeover. Or more likely, we already are on the midst of the takeover. I mean banks squander billions of dollars and the federal government bails them out. I'm happy to see Occupy Wall Street folks out there trying, but it'll take more that a few folks hanging out to make any real difference. Is it even possible to change the direction of money and power from moving up the chain? Is our government bought and sold already? The Supreme Court seems to be.

Facebook passwords being required as a condition of employment. Reminds me of the guy about to be drug tested by a possible employer who said, "you are not buying me, only renting me." What's next Sodium Pentathol?

I've long feared the the day that all the computers are hooked together and cash is declared illegal and then there will be no more secrets. I'm not paranoid. The net tightens.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

thursday

Let's see, this week. Met a new friend for a walk on Monday. Russell, the Corgi, is getting better at his on and off leash training. We're walking everyday. I just love that no matter what he's doing, when I call, he comes running. Skye continues to suffer short seizures, but seems fine afterwards. She'd just getting old. One reason I got Russell was to keep Skye company when I was gone. As I am home more often, I'm not sure if I'll replace her (not that I could ever be replaced Miss Skye). Russell is either asleep or demanding attention.

Took my friend Shelly to a new restaurant in Charlotte for her birthday. Real Southern cooking. The meal for two was about $20 but parking was $7. Gotta work on parking.

Getting better everyday, but more slowly than I'd like.

Tonight the Infamous Stringdusters are at the Visulite in Charlotte. I would say that of all the newer bluegrass bands, they are the best. I mean head and shoulders better. Looking forward. I hate shooting at the Vis (poor lighting, of course) but if I get there early enough I can get a seat on the rail and not have to drag around my bag.

On Tuesday I get a call from a friend who was under the effects of LSD and had gotten lost on her way home. We got her home safely (go google maps). Then on Wednesday she sent me her letter of intent (for editing) to apply for a highly technical Mater's degree program. I have interesting friends.

Thanks for stopping by my blog. I'll think of something more interesting to blog ...eventually.

Monday, March 19, 2012

I just need to confess

I love my girls all the same but that Gibson Hummingbird really is the guitar of my dreams. I want to be buried with this guitar, just not any time soon.

Off for a family dinner. See ya.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

NCAA afternoon

Raining on and off. Made lunch (actually used the stove and a pan) Drinking a Dogfish Head 60 minute Pale Ale. Dogs are sleeping. NC State ahead over Georgetown, UNC later this afternoon. Played the Martin D-15 and worked on some new material. Played with puppies until the rain started. Made a new friend.

All is right in the world (ok well my world anyway).

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Blog post #265


Thursday appears to be the day I catch up here. I am pushing the boundaries and finding my limits. I'm in worse shape than I thought. So, I'm just going to be walking for a few more days until I hit the gym again. Need to build up the lungs first I suppose. But no matter, it'll get done.

Added some new songs to my practice. One of my favorites is "Sunny Afternoon" by the Kinks. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1h1oRP7FfBw ) Great bass walk down. No matter how much I practice, when I pull out something I have been playing for decades, still come out more naturally, Dylan, Young and the like. Maybe it's just playing a song hundreds of times. I swear this used to be easier, lol.

The weird pain I've been feeling  was diagnosed as peripheral neuropathy. Dr. thinks was caused by the radiation and should improve over time. So, I'll adjust and monitor.

Thinking about dating again. Not sure how or where to start.

I saw the movie "Game Change" about Sarah Palin. Not intended to gain sympathy for her, but I felt so badly for her. Profoundly ignorant and yet place into a nightmare and misunderstanding everything.

Otherwise just getting along pretty well. Weather is wonderful, 80 degrees in March.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Good morning


I haven't checked in for a few days so here I am checking in.

I have been getting to the gym and building lung function and overall strength. Every day seems better than the last. One month ago I could barely walk up my driveway and the other day walked Russell all the way downtown, about 1.7 miles round trip. Still haven't found the source of the pain on my left side. Not even sure what kind of doctor to see. Even my memory is improving. Nowhere near how I was before all this started but good enough. I work my brain like a bodybuilder works his abs.

Playing guitar better than ever. I usually start practicing about 8:30 am. I've added some new songs, The Mountain Wins Again, Closing Time, Learn to Fly, Take Me to the River, and (What's the Story) Morning Glory. Really want to find somewhere to play.

Today should be a wonderful day with the temperature rising to 70 degrees. I think Russell and I will go for a walk downtown. Sadly Skye is getting too old for such a strenuous walk. Thinking about getting her a wagon so I can pull her around. I wonder of she'll go for that?

ACC basketball tourney starts today. Go Heels!


Sunday, March 4, 2012

I've been wondering

I've been wondering what's is going on with the Right Wing in this country. I see an unholy alliance of white supremacy (although many are in denial about their racism), Evangelical Christians, and lower and lower middle class males.

Prejudice shows it's ugly head in the persistent believe that non-whites are trying to get a "free ride" at the expense of the working white man. The classic "shiftless negro." This is shown the hated of immigrants, legal or otherwise. Building 2000 mile fences, self-organized posses "guarding our southern border," and laws designed to frighten and contain the non-white across the country. 

The Evangelicals appear to come together for differing places. One group longs for an imaginary time when they fantasize life was better because people were more "moral."  If you look at the 1950's, one of the times when these folks idolize, moral behavior was more rigidly controlled. Interracial marriage was illegal, voting rights of non-whites denied, certain sexual behavior was illegal. They appear to believe that the influence of the Church was greater in controlling the behavior of others back then. Why do these folks want to control other's moral behavior? I believe this is the fear that their own numbers will follow the crowd away from the community and threaten the social order. The advent of women's right, access to birth control, education and employment outside the home have changed our cultural in ways that seem to conflict with these religious beliefs.

Another more lunatic extreme group believe that they are responsible to remake the world in order to prepare for Jesus' Second Coming. This is why they support the State of Israel. Jerusalem must not be in Moslem hands or Jesus cannot return.

This group contains some of the climate change deniers. The believe that God is in control of the planet and nothing mankind can accomplish can change or interfere with the plan. A subgroup in this is the "Dominion Christians," whose logic suggests that we have dominance over the Earth and can use up the resources because it doesn't matter. The end of the world will occur before the damage to the planet is severe. 

Economically, we have created another, likely permanent, underclass. The white man, skilled and unskilled labor, are losing ground faster than any other group. Unable to compete with workers in other countries only making $5 a day, is group is experiencing high unemployment. These jobs no longer exist. So the numbers of under educated males will be locked out the job market, unable to acquire the necessary skills to rejoin the work force. Anachronistic beliefs about gender roles will plague these men who once, but now can no longer support their families. Hence the anger being expressed somewhat indiscriminately towards, the minorities and illegals, intellectuals, gays, and socialism. Oddly not against the people who helped send their jobs overseas.

Females in the group appear to be more adaptable and will to get training and education to gain employment. Thus more problems ahead for the family dynamics of the lower and lower middle classes, as the women become the primary breadwinners.

So, we have this group of disaffected voters who are likely to be feel less in control of their lives, seeing the world they wish they had, slipping further and further away. Unfortunately, the lack of education, a sense of the difference between truth and falsehood, an irrational belief structure that directs their energies in unproductive ways, a media empire dedicated to supporting falsehoods held in this group, all conspire to keep them distracted for the real issues confront them and the nation. These wedge issues are being used to rally the unwitting to the side of the Right Wing. Birth Control was legalized in 1965 and here we are fighting it again, 47 years later. Women's rights to control their own bodies is being challenged again. 

Why does the Right fear women's sexual freedom?  It is a direct threat to the all to brief period in the 20th century, the nuclear family.  Controlling women is key to the recreation of the imagined time when things were stable and easy to understand. Right was right and wrong was wrong.

I've been wondering for a while how these groups were united in supporting certain issues which do not seem to directly benefit themselves. It would appear that one common feature of these groups is the wish to return to a time past that is never to return. 


These are my thoughts this Sunday afternoon. I may have more thoughts soon.





Skye





Friday, March 2, 2012

Thursday, March 1, 2012

new life

Now it is time to look forward and create a new life for myself. I've never been a "let things come to me" kind of guy. I like to make plans, set goals, and achieve. Always been fairly driven. I graduated with my undergraduate degree (one major, two minors) in 4 years. Considering I attended a big party school (ECU) and I was big party guy, demonstrates my need to get things done. Earned my Master's degree in 18 months. Then I decided to start a Ph.D. program and did complete that, too. They say, if you aren't compulsive before grad school, you will be before you graduate.

I found it very hard to take it easy and let my body heal. Almost 4 years of fighting the urge to get up and get going, even though I was so fatigued I could barely get out the door. I feel kind of guilty not producing, creating, accomplishing goals. I had to remember my #1 goal was to survive and I needed what energy I had to put into healing. Started learning to relax, which does not come naturally to me.

I'm wondering if I can take the lessons learned during my enforced relaxation and still get things done. Which will win out? Can the two ways of living work together? Maybe I just need to learn my limits.

Checking out an "Open Mic" night in Charlotte next week. I have the urge to perform.

Yesterday I hit the gym for the first time in years. Sore. No gym today, only walking.

To celebrate being healed, I'm thinking trip. France/Spain or Costa Rica? Would love to have a traveling partner, but haven't anyone now.

Now that Spring is close, I'm getting ready to break out the camera.

So what of the old life should be kept and what should be added? No limits, except running for Congress. Ain't going to that.