13 out of 28

13 Days in one doctor's or another's offices during August. 

Went to see my massage therapist on Tuesday. Wednesday is felt great. Today I'm so sore I thought I was dying.

After Katie chewed through her first harness, I bought her two new one's. The smaller one fits well and she doesn't complain. Be trying the leash next.

Not much other news. Need to re-foam the sofa cushions. 

amazing when you think about it

I first moved up my scans a couple of weeks and on Aug. 7 had the MRI  that shows a few mets. 16 days later I've completed treatment. Go medicine.

I was thinking last night that if the cancer continues to return to my brain then at some point I'll have to agree to another course of whole brain radiation. Likely that would push my brain into dementia. Then, without memories, it will erase my personality. I suspect that dementia patients do not form personalities,  new or otherwise. Therefore, the WBR would push me faster and into a death of personality. Since our culture refuses to allow actual mercy deaths, perhaps a psychological death could precede the physical death.

Yea, even retired folks still have Mondays.

round 2

Home from the second round of STS radiation. Two more tumors bite the dust. Glad for that but cancer treatment is still a bitch. So tired. No way I'll make it to Phish on Sunday.

Hoping for a break in the find cancer kill cancer routine I have going on here. I'd like a year off please.

more mets

Survived the SRS treatment this morning. A whole hour of holding absolutely still. The mask also blocks all vision. But in viewing the latest MRI, they found two more mets and I'll be back under the radiation gun on Friday. A little dizziness seems to be the worse of it. Still, I know it is giving me more time and all that but boy am I sick of all these treatments.

chilling before tomorrow

Brain cancer radiation tomorrow. Not so much fear but dread. I hate these procedures. 4 surgeries, 4 chemo, 33 radiation treatments so far.

I just ache all time. But lungs in best shape since the surgery. Walking up to two miles a day. Just going to learn to ignore the discomfort. Guitar playing going well.

Katie is growing fast. Leash training again this afternoon.

New smartphone is so cool. I can play movies right off my Netflix cue.

still waiting

I finally leave the house to have dinner with my step-mother and her sister yesterday. About 6:20 I ask my neighbor to watch out for the truck. Between my leaving and his getting here, UPS appears (6:22p). So, waiting again today.

Had yet another MRI at CMC this morning. Man I hate driving in Charlotte. I got so lost.

Saw a 1995 Gibson J-100 12 string for $900 on Craigslist. I almost called.

I like it here with my puppies. So I go to treatment.

waitin' for the man

Waiting alright. Waiting for that brown van and the magic package he'll be bringing. Nothing like the excitement of a new smart phone. It's out for delivery. But, we all know that waiting. Can you walk the dog, will they come? Shower? Leave the house at all? Panic sets in.  Hours ahead and miles to go. Waiting.

Waiting.



still waiting.




s t i l l  w  a  i    t     i         n             gggggggggggggg